I don't know
when it all began
When I started realising you're no longer the person I used to know.
What happened to that warm smile and friendly voice that used to greet me?
The ones that have been replaced by a cold shoulder and foreign 'Hello'
Why don't we talk like we used to,
Act like we used to
What was different then that was now?
Seeing how you have singled me out,
I don't know what your intentions were and I would never know,
But it doensn't matter because what you did was hurt me
It hurts,
When I think about how we used to be,
To see how we've become
Did everything mean nothing to you?
It hurts,
To pretend that I don't care,
To force a smile and say I'm fine
It hurts,
To know that you were the one who could make me happy,
Yet you were also the one who made me sad
It hurts,
To have to guess what I mean to you,
Because you only call when you seem interested,
But you leave me in the dark when you are not.
It hurts,
To know that I can't seem to hate you,
I wish I could, if it means that I can forget you.
But I don't blame you at all,
Indeed I blame me for making myself vulnerable,
For letting my guard down and allowing myself to believe that this time round things would be different
Maybe I was in denial,
Blinded by what I wanted to see,
Not realising that I never meant anything to you
The tears that I've cried cannot be returned
The pain that I've felt erased,
Since you have chosen to exclude me from your life,
I can only say thanks for the memories and wish you well.
-^^-
.chinese.